Old

I just had a birthday the other day, and I find myself feeling different about this one. I haven't really minded getting older as I advanced further into adulthood, but now that I'm 38, I have slid into the category of "old crone", as my beloved husband would say. (I feel grateful to him that I'm not an "old maid", at least.) I feel a distinct barrier between myself and those younger than I am. Perhaps those of you who are older than me have no sympathy--I know that I'm not really OLD old, but I am definitely in a different category than those young single girls who live in apartments and buy new cars. I'm halfway to 76!! I'm twice as old as a 19-year-old!! I could have a legal adult for a child if I'd begun procreating earlier! I'm way outside the desirable demographic for advertisers! I'm almost 40! I'm beginning to understand those women who say they are 39 when they are in their 60's. Ugh!